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Hearthfire
02:56
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There are a million empty rooms in this world
but I'd really like just one
Everyone around here has somewhere to go back to
but my hearthfire is long, long gone
Now I'm on my own
And I don't have a home.
I pack myself in boxes and big plastic bags
Drag myself from city to city
Everyone around here has someone to go back to
But my hearthfire exists in pity
Now I'm on my own
And I don't have a home.
I know this is how people move on
But my heart just isn't equipped
To never know I've got somewhere to go back to
My hearthfire is a long road trip
Now I'm on my own
And I don't have a home.
I'm always on my own, hands frozen on the phone
Determined to prove that I've grown
But I know I can't do this alone
My hearthfire is a big, cold stone
Now I'm on my own
And I don't have a home.
When I'm through with school and grown
I won't have much, but it's okay.
Gonna buy myself somewhere to go back to
From my hearthfire, I'll never stray
When I'm on my own, I'm gonna get myself a home.
When I'm big and grown, I'm gonna get myself a home.
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2. |
By the Sea
02:45
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Sometimes when it's been raining
I can pretend I still live by the sea
The houses look short and windblown
And there's water on the trees.
I can pretend my friends are waiting
To eat breakfast together and laugh
And when I open my eyes tomorrow
I'll have my old life back.
We won't talk about the things we sacrificed
To be here today
It's better when you're frozen in time
And no one has to go away.
I'll go to sleep in a bed that is mine
Surrounded by things I worked for
Never owing anything to anyone
Just the girl they're rooting for.
Now everything is different
Trapped in the valley I call home
But if home if where the heart is
If I have one...I don't know.
Sometimes when it's been raining
I can pretend I still live by the bay
As long as I ignore the street signs,
everything might be okay.
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3. |
Forgotten How
04:04
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Come a little closer
And press your lips to mine
Whisper in my ear all the words
you put to my name.
I'm not looking for a man to show me
They're not all the same
Because I have met so many
Whose hearts of gold put me to shame.
And you'll hear me say
The things you want to hear
I'll whisper them in the dark
You won't doubt it's from the heart.
But I hear myself
Saying things I can hardly believe
I don't know if I love anybody
I think I've forgotten how.
In this universe of loners
Fortune brought me to you
I don't know if I can reach your side
With these bricks in my shoes.
I'm not looking for a man to show me
That fairy tales are true
Because I have met so many princes
And I don't want that to be you.
And you'll hear me say
The things you deserve to hear
I'll write a touching song
That's sure to right the wrongs.
But I hear myself
Saying things I used to believe
I don't know if I love anybody
I think I've forgotten how.
Who still believes
In golden rings and sunset dreams?
I think I've forgotten how.
My sister says that I'm a child
And my mother says I'm older
The one says I'm too loving
And the other I've grown colder.
I'm just looking for a man who'll know me
When I grow a little bolder
And open my heart....
And I'll hear myself
Desperate to really believe
I want to love somebody, anybody...
I think I've forgotten how.
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4. |
The Tide
04:04
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You're heavy on my mind
Pulling me under the tide
I never expected to give you my life
And fall right before your eyes.
I'm scared of how much
I've found it in me to love
Your love is a wave that's carried me off
And I don't want the tide to come up.
I love you
How 'bout that for news?
I brought some brand new shoes
And I'm gonna walk 'em straight to you.
Will your sensible heart
Take me in your arms?
Or let me wait out the days
Falling, falling, falling slowly apart?
I've never seen this side
Of the love for which one dies
But if you got that look in your eyes
I'd walk right into the tide.
My heart is full of fear
Of wanting you so near
There's no one else
I hold so dear
And it feels like my armor's pierced.
I love you
And it feels so much like blue
I wore right through my shoes
Chasing after you
And you, you sensible man
I never know your plan
To watch me wait out the days
Falling, falling, falling slowly apart.
It's not hard.
I can't see in your distant gaze
The impact I've made on your quiet heart
And I love you more than I wanted to
So now I'm scared of finding myself without you.
You're heavy on my mind
I've never seen you cry
I want my arms around you tight
But I'm going out with the tide....
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5. |
My Red Hat
02:36
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It was my red hat
It was my favorite hat
It made me feel like the girl from the movies.
And I left it
On the sink in the bathroom
I couldn't believe I did that.
It was my first bat
It was my purple tin bat
Though the girls on the team hated me.
But my mom said
That I was better than that
So I hit the ball, though I was too fat.
She was the best cat
Who could argue with that?
And we put her to sleep and went bowling.
And she laid down
On the bench where we sat
Thanking us for giving her back.
It was my red hat
It was my favorite hat
I lost it when my dad and I went camping
And that hat
I will never get back
But they could have all that
If I could have my dad.
It was my last chance
No, there's no going back
And I'm walking away with the last laugh
But I'd give all that for my favorite red hat
I just couldn't believe I lost that.
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Tomorrow
04:02
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Today was not a day for success
Wrapped myself up in excuses and stress
Forgive me
I should have a sense of duty
But I don't
Not today.
Today was not a day I feel good about
Wilting in bed like some fragile little flower
Forgive me
I make myself a mystery
But I'm not
I'm afraid.
Forgive me
I haven't done anything
To make you proud of me
But you allow me
To wallow in my self pity
I could benefit from a scar or two
It would make me live up to you.
Today was not a day you'd hoped for
Left my commitments at the door
Forgive me
No, I don't think you should give that to me
Not today.
Please believe me
I appreciate your empathy
But it may not be good, you see
I regret things
Done and left undone to me
In this lonely, empty body
I can barely even breathe.
Today was not a day for success
I really have no excuses, I guess
Forgive me
I should have a sense of duty
A sense of who I ought to be
But I don't
Not today
It's too late
Tomorrow I may.
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7. |
The Price
02:54
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Stand proud and strong
In the end you have won
But at what cost
Have I won my freedom?
It seems I've lost so much
A world I cannot touch
Happiness came at a price.
Stand proud and strong
In the end they were wrong
Look at you, you've won
I don't want to be on top
If it means this emptiness is wrought
Happiness, where are you now?
Look at us now
Pretending we still love somehow
Even though we both stood our grounds
We let go, so we could silently drown.
Stand proud and strong
I won't stand to be your pawn
I don't want to be the lonely one.
It's a shame you don't see
How you've given up on me
Happiness came at a price
And in the end
I was right.
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8. |
Remember That?
03:00
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Remember when we slept in the same bed
Remember we'd fall asleep head to head?
We didn't sleep at all
Laughing 'til we filled the halls
Remember that?
Whenever when you moved far away from me
I promised you that I'd be happy
But I can't stay that it's okay
That you're so far away
Remember that.
You're my best friend
Don't forget you are
You're the missing piece inside of my heart.
You know that my home will always be where you are
I just wish it wasn't so far.
Remember when you tried to play a joke on me?
I was so young I took you seriously
You felt so bad
You cradled me while I was sad
Remember that?
Remember when you nearly saved me
From becoming someone I didn't want to be
You helped me grow
And I'm so grateful so
remember that.
You're my best friend
Don't forget you are
There's a missing piece inside of my heart
You know my home will always be where you are
I just wish it wasn't so far.
Remember when I cried at your wedding?
I was so glad to see you happy
The joy of my life is knowing that you're alright
Remember that.
So it's alright
That you took flight
Remember that.
You're my best friend
Don't forget you are
You make up the pieces of my heart
And you know that I'll never stray very far
I will always be where you are.
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I could fall in love with you
I doubt you'll fall in love with me too
I know it isn't easy to do
But I will fall in love with you.
I will give you my all
You won't even have to call
It won't take much for me to fall
And you won't notice it at all.
A kiss is easy
Giving in is nothing
And I wish that were true
'Cause I will fall in love with you.
I will tell you it's okay
And I won't ask for you to stay
And as you drift far away
You won't see my heart break.
I will play it cool
As I fall in love with you
You won't have a single clue
I'd walk a hundred miles for you.
A kiss is easy
Sweet words mean nothing
And I wish I could see
That you are not in love with me.
I could fall in love with you
Despite everything that tells me not to
And knowing that your love's not true
I'll fall the hell in love with you.
And if you do this thing to me
I hope that you're prepared to see
Every little breaking piece
If you don't fall in love with me.
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10. |
This Body
04:03
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It's been hard to live in this body
It's been hard to live in this heart
I have asked for so much forgiveness
I know you're sick of hearing this part.
It's been hard to face the future
When my head is dark as the night
But I thank you for being here with me
As I fight this fight.
I'm strong
But I forget who I am sometimes
And I hide in bed, oh how I hide
And I want to live someone else's life
But I'm wrong
For how blessed am I?
But it's hard to see
All that I could be
When all I wanna do is cry.
It's been hard to live in this body
It's been hard to live in this heart
I have asked for some much understanding
And you've graciously done your part.
And it's been hard to stand on my own too feet
Though I fall so much sometimes
It's been hard to live in this body
Even in such a beautiful life.
I'm not strong
When I forget who I am and hide
And I cry in bed, oh how I cry,
And I want to leave and forget this life
But I'm wrong
For how powerful am I?
Though it's hard to be
All the things you see
When I feel like I could die.
It's been hard to live in this body
And disappoint you from the start
I want to be so much more than me
But it's hard to live with this heart.
And I know that strength is within me
I know my brain is to blame
It's chemicals and balances
That fill my heart with shame.
I'm strong
But I forget who I am sometimes
I can't hide in bed, oh I can't hide,
I can't sleep away my whole long life
I belong
In this world if I just try
To be all the things you see in me
I know that I could try.
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11. |
Abagail Grayce Santa Rosa, California
I am a girl. I write songs about the things on my heart.
You can find me on Spotify and Facebook under Abagail Grayce.
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